While looking at many thought provoking materials that helped explain, articulate, contextualize the meaning behind why humans have spirituality, wisdom, philosophy etc. i began to get caught up in how profoundly meaningful/exploitative it all is. So with my initial intention being 'oh yeah i might make up some whimsy fake prophecies' it became excruciatingly difficult to feel comfortable and confident with any possible prophetic statements that came to mind. Although while researching and seeing this recurring mention of those who exploit the vulnerable so i felt consolidated to think about how an object can't be corrupted, have an agenda, or favor any group of individuals. My mind became focused on making sure i wasn't being disrespectful towards peoples beliefs (adding another critique on belief systems and their exploitation) because i tend to lean towards the silly with my work. But then also didn't want to seem ignorant with adapting wisdom and philosophy, trying to be seriously adamant about my advice became harder the more i thought about it.
With the decision on tone being your 'average joe', trying to seem universal while still down to earth like you're talking to a friend with genuine love and care again was difficult for me to even try and record. I didn't realize how hard it is to record audio of yourself saying anything with genuine intention while you have a camera in your face and nobody else in the room.
So i got drunk with a friend and recorded us talking about the different virtues (an effort to not be too self conscious and talking to someone i felt comfortable with) after a while we forgot about the camera.... but we also forgot about what we were supposed to talk about.... and eventually couldn't say much sense, it got pretty messy
* I'll put a montage together of our banter and post it with some other videos
It didn't really help because still with any topic brought up i went around in circles for how to say to somebody universally basically what they should or shouldn't do.... so i figured i was in over my head.
so instead (after talking with JB) I decided i would pick people i knew and have myself some confession time where I'd say (as if they were in the room) what advice i wish i could say to their face that i thought would give them insight into themselves.
This helped in focusing what i wanted to say plus felt like it would be easier recording with conveying genuine emotion... although that was before I tried recording myself, which was an anxious process with lots of stopping and starting.
Hearing the audio and looking over the footage i decided i didn't want to use the audio to put with gertie (hairy fortune cookie) but there was around 5 minutes of me staring off thinking about what i was going to say. Which led to me just using it for the final cut editing exercise.
*i'll the video in a different post
-originally for this exercise I'd edited a video of me and another friend dancing around the lounge room (again very drunk) to Justin Timberlake with a shitty roller-coaster green screen effect.... but I'm not sure I'm allowed to post it on the internet, i haven't told her I've used it yet. (i can show the class the video saved on the computer, we just won't tell her heeheee)
ok so back to thinking of what kinds of sounds i wanted to come out of gertie (hairy fortune cookie) i was hoping to have something that would elevate the symbol of the vagina into being something important or at least have something to say that didn't seem degrading. But then (again) i felt uncomfortable in making statements that i was confident with that would do it justice. So i began thinking instead about sounds, and my general 'go to' move is whatever would personally entertain and amuse me, so I ignored the idea of elevating and instead maybe i should try making it as gross as possible. I figured depicting something vaginal in the most disgusting way would help bring up discussion of why we think they're gross, and at least coming to a conclusion that they're not that bad (at least compared to Gertie which looks more like a vulgar monster)
I also have been thinking of what kinds of names to give this project, I'v called the object itself Gertie just because i got tired of calling it 'that hairy vaginal thing', but i thought maybe having a phrase to contextualise the experience would help in directing people's reflection on it.
soooooooooo lemme know what you think about
'I'm not a cunt'
for a name..... ?
- thought it might induce an interesting discussion on insults and vaginas especially with the name insinuating that there's a defensive attitude about what it would be obviously interpreted as. with using the word cunt (not to swear just for the sake of it) I'm curious as to why its a provocative word and the response it creates whether its people laughing or being offended. Similar with the instillation I'm curious if people will just giggle or become disgusted
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